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Only me...I'm fighting, I'm crying
I'm dying inside.
wont you take the pain aside.
I'm wading through the
shallow depths of my depression.
All I need to feel,
is some compassion.
Surely this is not right,
not meant to be.
I'm only me.
But I will be strong.
I will cope.
Even with all this wrong.
I will make my own hope.
You....Your smile, so happy
it makes the moon cry.
Your eyes, so sparkling
they make water look dry.
Your personality, so dazzling
it makes glitter look dull.
Your thoughts, so colourful
they make rainbows uninteresting.
Your heart, so big
it makes love itself feel small.
Your beauty, so stunning
it makes the sun shy.
Why wont you let go?Do you know what it feels like?
To feel nothing yet delve
into the darkness,
plunging into the unknown.
The unknown consumes you,
and you don't know
what to do with yourself.
Because you're just that detached;
isolated from everyone else.
You don't feel angry, oh no.
That isn't what you feel.
You just feel void, empty.
Like there's no emotion in you,
no one can contemplate,
or even understand you.
And you're just plagued
by this idea that
you brought this upon yourself.
All this sadness,
is because of you
and because you
wont let go.
And because you wont let go,
it'll keep coming back and
coming back to haunt you -
you'll never forget...
because it hurt you, that much.
I Want To Love YouI know I'm supposed to love you.
I know deep down I do.
I hope I do.
I don't like feeling this way about you,
But so often are you nasty to me.
I'm sick of taking your abuse.
I'm sick of feeling like I'm living the same day over and over.
I want to love you,
But you make it difficult.
I want to love you,
But that isn't my feelings in my heart.
I wish that you thought logically,
Like everyone else.
It makes me frustrated.
I just want you,
To realize what's happening to me.
I need you to give me more then just money.
I need the love that hasn't been provided,
I just feel alone.
I want to love you,
But I can't.
I hate you.
Let Me Tell You A StoryLet Me Tell You A Story
A little girl once walked though the world,
and the world let her keep her head up high.
Soon she found out that if she bent her head only a little,
the world would let her skip.
She skipped and skipped until one day she discovered that when she fell,
bending it down just a slight bit lower eased the pain.
Pressure built as she traveled through her years,
until she discovered by bending just a little bit lower, the pressure was easier to handle.
Every time something became too much she would bend just a little lower,
the change not because she was beat down, but because she succumbed.
Now she falls down into a sweeping bow, shoulders drooped, eyes lowered, head fixed on the floor,
when the world decides to let her look up again.
The air allows for her to rise the same amount she fell when she was young,
before the last gust knocks her to her knees.
No other time before now has she known what a mistake the first fall was,
but no other time before now did she appr
Touch the SkyThe beauty of a lonely tree
Strikes a chord inside of me
I sit on a rock and ponder
If the solitude made it stronger
Did being all alone
Turn its will to stone
Make it desperately
Want to live to see another tree?
If these thoughts are correct
Perhaps I should go back a step
Find the same will inside
Refuse to give up or die
Someday I'll find my purpose
Stop feeling so worthless
I walk to the tall old tree
Holding an acorn close to me
I plant it in the earth nearby
Someday it will reach the sky
I try to reward my new friend
For the seed it planted within
I cried for you.Last night I cried about you.
I cried for you.
Wishing I was next to you.
This love we share is different then most.
We survive on true connection.
While we yet have to feel each other's touch.
But I can't stand this pain of not having you near me.
I promise not to leave you & I know you won't leave me.
I just can't stand being alone & I know if you were here you would help come save me.
After each call.
After each text.
You'll be there beside me.
Now all I can do is imagine.
But now I'm afraid.
I'm starting to lose faith & hope.
I won't give up I promise you that, but right now I just don't know.
Some Scars Never FadeI'm full of scars,
Inside and out.
In my skin and in my mind.
Ones are from when I didn't learn from my mistakes,
And made them again.
Some are from that time were I could just heard them laughing at me.
But they were quiet when those appeared in my arms...
I have a lot from one day I ran away,
And ended in the forest.
Even the twigs and branches didn't seemed to have compassion...
I have two on my face, crossing my eyes,
Because of the time I couldn't, or rather didn't wanted, to see my friends by my side...
And they still say that time makes everything fade away?
He Hurt YouYou look at him
You feel sick
You wanna hate him but can't
You feel hate
& love towards him
But he hurt you
You wanna hug & kiss him
Yet you wanna punch & break him
Like he did to you
You wanna put your hand through his hair like you used too
You wanna kiss those cute lips
Its not the same
He hurt you
Every single thingWatching him is beautiful
Is peaceful, yet powerful
He puts his all into the music
The true person, shows in the playing
No words, yet to me...
It says a thousand things
Just us and the guitars
The almost perfect expression
Of every single thing we have inside of us.
Dead Man's SwitchIn control, then not -
Sudden loss of grip.
Headlong to where?
Details lost, smudged, streaked.
Careening; no system of
No dead man's switch,
On a fast track -
With or without a god?
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